What had happened to her.

This is a story of a girl.

“Sometime knowing is better than not”.

It ruins herself with knowing something that she is not supposed to know, how could that be? I don’t know why this kind of thing is happening to her. She told me that this thing had happened many years ago while she was still a child. It keeps appearing in her thought, and haunting her. When she sleeps, baths, anything she done, she just can’t keep away of the thought.

It was torturing and makes herself realize how horrible person she is. How do I help her? I have no idea in solving this kind of problem….Time heals everything? Do you really believe that it does? Well, you never know when you never try…Hope she will get over the problem soon.

Kanshou a.k.a aiyuko

New page for this blog.

From now on..this blog will be telling stories rather than only about me..it could be a story of a girl/boy/animals/anime/music/someone or something i don't even know..Tomorrow will be another new year 2011, so, things has to change and more goals to be achieved in the coming years..Ganbatte and Fighting!

"No matter how many times you fall, make sure you always get up and learn your lesson. By doing so, you are getting closer to your success."

Quote taken from -
http://www.business-and-life-coaching.com/motivation/encouraging-quotes

I like anime so much!

I feel like i need to write something, to speak it out..How would you describe me? For myself, so far..i understand what kind of person i am.

1. I don't like to do anything that too attract people attention. I don't know if
sometime i did it accidently..the world is too shine for me..I always like to
isolate myself from those people that is considered "shiny" to me. (i think thats
normal for some people right? But, i do like to social..just sometime im so cool
and lazy to socialize with others..i don't pretend to social with
others..cause pretending is suffering..)

2. I appreciate those people who truly value me. I don't like people making friends
with me with purpose that only benefit to themselves..Actually, i do have friends
like that now..Until now, i still don't know is she really are my true friend..
For my best/true friend, i don't treat them like friends, instead, i treat them
just like my sisters^^

3. I got 3 the most important things i cannot live without them, Food, Anime and my
dearest cats..I lost my dearest cat during my study away from house..im so
sad..cause i even lost all her pictures when my laptop broke down at the same
time..Guess is my fate..but i still got her pictures as my msn avatar now..

So sudden i thought of writing this topic because of two factor, first, today i chat with a sister who is 7 years old younger than me, her name is Miss P. she is really a sweet and cute little sister, and i know lots about her during my part time work now..She really a good girl and really taken good care by her family, she learn many kinds of art, singing, dancing and even enter a private school that cost rm500 per month...Her type is considered "shiny" to me..i wont approach her...but she is the one who approach me..When we were talking, I was like woah! i know nothing..and im so outdated...omg..then, when i ask myself back, what do i know? my answer is only one..anime..

Second, im back from working..and my friend just called me..the first thing she say is, " ellena, stop watching anime" i was O.O..lolz...so, thats the way she thought of me all the time..lolz..Her name is Miss. W.C , For me, she is a really independent friend, she work hard for the things she want and she put lots of efforts, honestly, im really admire her actually, she is active in her club although is not an official club in our uni..and im really glad i know her, cause i learn lots from her..

So, conclusion..im such an otaku girl..all i know is anime..and i never regret it, and proud to be one, cause what i really like is anime. End.

PTC result got a donkey.

I got bad result..and i thought i was good..and it so embarrass..Yesterday, i found out really badbadbad grade in one of the subject, and i always get bad grade from that lecturer, i guess i just can't get it, my english is poor and i didnt study smart enough to score, thats may be the reason for me getting bad grade...

Haiz..so sad, am i going to retake the subject again? well..thinking about it wont solve my problem..and i dont want to be sad for a month while waiting for the final exam result..my mid term is bad and i guess final exam is worst..From here, i realize my weakness..Study, i really like to memorise..but for analyzing..ehm...im really not good at it..

hm..suddenly thought about it..well, i will just ignore my result for that subject first and move on to the coming papers next week, wish me luck then. :)

Grateful for having such a nice supervisor/Lecturer!

is been a while again no update my blog..i used to write blog everyday in another blog..but curse that blog, my account got suspend without a reason or an information letter, and cheater blog..muz be dont wanna pay my money back..since i earn a little for writing the blog..

Actually i got many things to share here in my blog, pictures? lots? but lazy to update yet cuz i still got bunch of homeworks havent completed yet..huhu
Juz did my presentation today and im very grateful that i have such a great supervisor!
Our supervisor really taught us a lots and always hoping us to learn somethings from this expo..
Remember the first impression to our supervisor ." messy and proud"
But, knowing that he really did help us, although for the meeting for our group, really scare him cause he really strict and always want the best....
we rush and rush, work hard and finally we earn back..
Today is the presentation, our supervisor praise us and proud of us~
Therefore, really thanks Mr.K for all his advices~ He is a great supervisor and lecturers.
So, finally apk come to an end and say bye2 to our members, the pleased one and the not pleased one..hahaha
And next, will be the mid-term...huhu...

Sorry for the *Broken english*~ and im so sleepy now...zzzz...

I wanna say..

I was trying to post this in my blog24jam, but i wonder why it said my account is suspend...

Few days ago, i was so sad that i wasted a chance, the cheapest ticket i ever seen to japan which only cost rm290 to and return Malaysia..i was such a dumb, that going to japan is my dream and because of my hestitation, i just left the chance to get away like that..and now, im unaffordable to buy it for myself anymore..

Actually, it was so sad..and i really222 wanna go...it may cost a lot when i get there, but as long i got the cheapest ticket going there, it wont be a problem for me to save and take a walk thr, taking photograph and experience to be there...it is unaffordable to me since im still a student, yeah, thats the reason..i dont earn any money yet, so i shouldnt wasted also..

And today is my birthday and my twin brother birthday, my frez celebrate for me 3 days earlier as everyone is having exam the next week..so, is such a bad timing that my birthday fall between mid term exams..anyway, i dont expect much for birthday, wishes is enough for me, but, i still cant get over the japan tickets..well,is my fault, and because of my hestitation, i also made everyone loss the chance to go japan as well..

Hm..i do get my lesson this time, and i hope this wont be happening again...

Anyway, Tanjobi-omedeto for myself and my twin brothers, may our wishes come true and stay healthy as well, and thx for everyone wishing, we really appreciate it.^0^

K-On Season 2: You and I

Is been a while that i didnt update this blog...i was updating the other blog and i kind a getting slow in updating this blog..huhu, anyway, of course im still here and will always update my favourites things in this blog~Stay tune ;)
Btw, i found this great video!! i continue watch K-on Season 2 as i was halfway because of busy studying, and now, im up until ep22, there is 4 more ep coming up, but since it havent been released, guess i have to wait...

I found this nice song of their performance, After school tea time - You and I..



The song is cute and how life will be great if we can just be in anime, reckless and carefree..This song is made when she realized how important the people around her..they cannot be replaced as everyday they are with her..since is new, i dont know whether there will be a full version..anyway, is a nice song to be listen though. :)

Japanese cultural night UMS 2010

Yeppie..is JCN 2010, and is finally over..is a great experience anyway, i really enjoy it~ actually, now im using two blog, the kanshou.blog24jam.com and this blog, i actually update this topic in my other blog already..but since, im more concentrate to the other blog cause i got paid, so, you will notice that i only update few post in the blog..but, i will stil update this blog..no worry at all..
So, the night is quite interesting, you can refer to the pictures down thr..is a lot happen on that day~enjoy^0^

Karameki cafe and gundam model booths~

Pictures with our sensei, Oike Atsushi sensei..but i miss the photo cuz i went to toilet...T^T
There is sushi, cupcake, candies, games on that day..^^

This is sushi making competition handle by my dear friend, Shirley~

Some of the exhibition we can see on that day...

When we clear up all the stuff behind the stage, taking some photos again..heee

Owh>,<, this is so cute model..i feel like wanna bring it home..T^T

Photos with other people again..heee


Doraemon with other people taking pictures after the dance..See that doraemon..isnt it cute~? heee^0^

I really enjoyed that day..and thanks for all the members for making this event, we have a great time!;)

3days 2night at KL went to sis Graduation~

I went to KL for 3days 2night with my mum to attend my sis Mas Airline Stewardess Graduation~ wohuhu~ my sis finally graduate after 5 months training at KL mas academy, Congratulation sista , you finally get your dream come true, So, i went to KL with my mum, my mum like flowers, so she get a taxi and drive us to Sungai Buluh, too bad , no one can send us and mum need to spend money on transport..However, never trust that taxi GUy!!! he mentioned this word : We have to be honest as a taxi driver and charge fairly price: Yet, all he do is CHEAT! you botak man, cheat money , sweet talk no use lar, and he came from Melaka, i rather than a silent, no sweet talk driver charge with fairly price, screw you! taxi man!!..

OK, end of taxi talk, next, v arrived at the mas academy on the next day by taxi also, with different taxi driver of cuz, and i got a chance to look around, wuhuu~~ yeppie, and look around how those stewardess and steward trainee have their daily lesson, wow! since air asia been intorduced, there been a time i didnt take mas airline, here, i explore three classes which is the economy, bussiness and 1st claz, cool~, the 1st claz even gt room for online~ that is awesome!!

Finally, the last day, i always wanted to go Kinokuniya bookstore at KLCC, so we went there..omg, i never expect all the books that i interested to buy exceed rm100..that is over budget to me, so, in the end , i only bought this japanese magazine, which i need to translate myself in order to read it..it cost me abt rm32..so is fine with me..

Actually i really didnt take lots of picture, while some picture is not with me, and i even accidently delete a folder that the most important pictures is in that folder..

Anyway, again, congratulation to my sis for being a Mas Airline stewardess, really proud to be her sister..jiayou! and Ganbatte!!!

Go try new food at 1 Borneo!

Is another short and simple frez hang out again at 1 borneo, lolz..1 borneo is now popular with students hanging around cuz it is the nearest place where we can buy our daily supply and try out nice food there...i remember, this few lazy ladies in the picture went out to try the new restaurant opposite watson, im SO sorry, i forgot the name of the shop...and we stil have out paper exam tomorrow...hohoho, this is one of the tips to relieve stress..haha..anyway, we didnt notice the promotion and end up order side meals which is not worth than the promotion meals...you can see that the plate is not filled with much amounts of food..sad...but the restaurant sure decorated nicely which attract more and more people coming..

......

So boring..im actually r having exam nw..sat for two papers..bt really dissapointed with myself..feel wanna cry doing the papers cuz i studied in the wrong way..and last minutes..The first paper is Basic chemistry and the second is Microbiology..trying to cheer myself up and move on to the next papers..but still..sad about the two papers..bt guez thr's no way i could turn the time back..Next week going to sit for the other three papers..Wish me luck then..=D

Im so hate myself....

*Cries* what am i doing?? exam is coming next week..yet, i spend days reading manga even though the line was terribly slow...Feeling so sorry to myself yet can't find anyone to complain to..Im totally in a holiday mood now and wasting my time...determination is not strong enough and easily got distracted by other tiny things..there is 2 more days left..hope i'll get over these and find my study mood back...>.<

Happy birthday mum , we luv u ^^

My mum birthday was on 12 march..."Mum , happy birthday to u" ,she is now 53 years old..i love my mum as i noe she work so hard to raise us up...I understand she been hard earning money and think the best for us..although sometime i disagree with my mum with her opinion , i realized tat most of them i was wrong..now , im still a student..i got my schlarship..is not tat much but enuf to buy my mum a present..and i noe she like the earring since last year when i and my sis went to the shop with my mum..it cost rm200 and I decided to buy the earrings for mum as a present..She lyk it very much..i really hope my mum will be owez healthy and happy ,Luv ya..^0^

Kimi ni todoke - fanmade video

I am so in love with Kimi ni todoke..watched till ep 10 only..and goin to stop watching it for now until the series is all come out then i can enjoy the episode..the manga and anime are both really nice..the characters , the drawing and story is perfect for me..Really thx for the authors for making such a nice light romance manga..I definitely will buy the CD at speedy after the series is complete..

Searh through youtube and found this fanmade video is really nice , so do the music..^^

The outing before CNY

hohoho~this picture should be post before CNY where five of us , jwey hui , joan , me , Poh yee and Wern cui went out before the day for CNY holiday~^0^ , i really enjoy the day v hang out tat day , where v rent a car and out for the whole day , and only be bac in midnight ..everything is perfect..jz im so lu qi(don't noe the road) and miss out the place which v suppose to eat steambot..in the end , v eat steak at upperstar..huhu..>~< , Overall that day was great and thanks for hanging out together..^o^

I bought a broken hardisk.....TmT

Is sad when my sis is not here ...she went to KL for her stewardess training..really miss her and no one drive me to shop and back to campus , n spend me eat....
So today , my 3rd sister's boyfriend drive us to go buy hardisk..and we r in a hurry to buy...
As my sis survey the price before , so is rm178 for 320GB..and for the casing that i bought is quite expensive rm 55..so overal is abour rm230..i think is not a waste that i bought hardisk..
I owez lost my files and my com reformat again and again..plus , i lost my 8GB pendrive..*sob*
Everything is terrible..and i tink buying a hardisk should be ok...
But it end up..cannot on...
We go thr..buy..n faz2 bac home..i tell my bro to set for me..is very lucky to have little bro very good at computer..cuz he fix all my com probl...hehe~
then ,the hardisk light is nt on..something wrong with the hardisk....haiz..it end up lyk tat..
So , have to head back to that shop again......to be continued...

P/s: Actually life in uni..is bit unhappy for me..but i noe i can do it for myself..^0^

I started to worry.....

The Mid sem result is out and ...is not that satisfied pointer that i got...i was expecting about 3.5 without any plan..just simply study and mayb i could work out a 3.5 point..but i end up only got 3.2...actually , im very lucky already..since i didnt do quite effort during the study week and spend almost 80% of time on korikulum..i still can maintain my result to 3.2..while the 80% time i spend on..i only got B for that subject..what the hell.!!! ok , im so mad at the subject teater which i spend 80% of my study week on..and im glad for my physics which gt C better than fail..anyway , i still hope that i can a lot better in this semester and raise up my pointer..AJAJA , Ganbatte..~!! ^0^

Oneechan GANBATTE!!!!

Today ,my sis is goin to be a trainee for Mas airline stewardess..all the best for ya sis and enjoy~^6^

Another Outing~..sis's b'dAY

Today is my sis's birthday~she's not in the photo , cz v using her frez picture to take photos actually , and the above pictures are taken by my sister(sitting left side of me) mobile phone..anyway , my sister(Siaunee) , Wish u have a happy 21st birthday , lolz..although ur age is another one year old..bt u stil a 16 year old look little gurl~hahaha^0^

We had our lunch at one of the restaurant in Metrojaya , Suria Sabah..is quite a big mall..the service is not bad thr..bt the food is not that very nice to eat..bt overall is stil ok..

P/S: im goin back to study my Biotech course 2molo..huhu..i am so sad..that i like home very much..cuz the dorm thr is very make me uncomfortable..hw come the youngest at home got the least benefit than the older..everything..i tink i need to study smart and hard for the future of my life..AJAJA fighting..meow~

1st of january 2010 ....1st thing that make me happy..

First , i am so happy that i bought a bag...is the one i put in my wishlist few months ago..is a simple , ordinary tote bag from FOS..and i spent RM60 to this nothing special bag..although it seem not the best quality or branded bag..but it is one of my favorite bag..and it suit me well with a cat icon on the bag..i seldom buy expensive stuff for myself and usually spend all the money on eating nice food..trying new restaurant..and For year 2010 , i buy myself a new bag..and hopefully this year will be one of the best year i got..study smart and All the best..>.< , Ganbatte ne Ellena-san..^0^